reflecting moment

My daughter Kyla is precious to me. I love my little girl to pieces. So when my little princess asked if I wanted to play dolls with her, I was all for it. Well, that lasted about 5 minutes, then she decided she wanted to play fix mommys hair. What fun we had! I had to take a picture with my hairstylist too.

Later on that night, as I was tucking her into bed, Kyla pulled me down and whispered into my ear. " Mommy, tomorrow morning lets play dolls again and I will fix your hair."

In that moment, I realized yet again how important spending time with my children is. I will be the first to admit that I am easily distracted by technology. Music, phones, internet, my camera. They all pull my attention and I think to myself its ok, the kids are playing just fine without me. But!!!! How much more fine are they when I am playing with them!

I prayed about it last night and as I did, I heard the Lord say to me. You devote yourself to me first, Dustin second, kids third. " Well, ok God, but what about me and the things I want to do?"

"You are last Sue."

Ouch!!!!!! With tears in my eyes I repented of how often I have been putting me before them.
The verse : But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first. ( matt 19: 30 and mark 10:31)came to my mind. It was a lighting bolt of revelation for me. I am to lovingly serve my family, with no hopes of anything in return. That is my mission field for this season in my life. I am to put God and my families needs above my own. The Bible also says, there is no greater love, than a person laying down their lives for another.

So, what does that mean? Well, I guess for starters, I am going to have to place some boundries on technology. Its is such a distraction to me and I need( with Christ) to get control over it. I am praying about anything else..( i sure hope there is nothing else!)
In the end, I hope that my husband and two kiddos know they are my greatest earthly treasure and I am grateful everyday for them.